in the silence
Sunday, November 27, 2005
identity crisis....
Reflection
Christina Aguillera
Look at me
You may think you see who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day It's as if I play a part
Now I see If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now In a world where I have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow I will show the world what's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show Who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free to fly
That burns with a need to know the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think, how we feel?
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide?
I won't pretend that I'm
omeone else for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
weirdo....
i've been behaving really weird lately....
i have a secret crush on this guy....
i did a lot of research on him: i looked up his friendster, i usually visit his blog and i always read anything related to him (the things he wrote, where he usually goes, his sched etc.)
i have become one of his official stalkers!!!
i love seeing him even though i rarely look at him directly....
most of the time, i stare at him sideways or when i'm behind him
actually, i haven't stared at his face for more than 15 seconds....
i'm not even sure if i have already seen his face.... i just know some of its familiar features....
my friend also had a crush on this guy....
we would talk about him when we have time
my friend only met this guy during the start of the school year.... yet, she spends more time with him than me
i sometimes get jealous....
there are times when i wish that he didn't get the chance to meet my friend
i was selfish....
i really felt bad about how i was behaving and how i was treating my friend but i can't stop myself from feeling that way....
sometimes, i scold myself for telling my friend everything i know about our crush
the funny thing is, no matter how jealous i get, i still help my friend get closer to our crush
whenever i hear something new about him, i immediately tell it to my friend....
i smile when she tells me the things they talked about when they're together and how they seem to get along really well....
i find it hard to understand this behavior....
sometimes i can't understand why i'm doing this and that....
it seems like i'm a real weirdo!!!
i feel like a real psycho!!!
do these things make sense?
i'm not really sure....
i don't even know if i'm making sense....
hahahahahaha
inspiring poem....
I Hope You Dance
Lee Ann Womack
I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small when you stand by the ocean
I hope you still feel small when you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances but they're worth taking
Lovin' might be a mistake but it's worth making
Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out Reconsider
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
Time is a real and constant motion always rolling us along
Time is a real and constant motion always rolling us along
Tell me who wants to look back on their youth and wonder
Where those years have gone
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance. :)
Monday, November 14, 2005
senti mode....
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Kyla
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