dilemma...

am i going to run or not...
i want to focus on my academcs because next year is going to be more challenging
but there's a part of me that is eager to bring back the forgotten side of me...
its been a long time since i last held a high position and led a group of people towards one goal
i partly did it this year but it seems like the results were not that good
i'm afraid that i will not be able to do my job well
i don't want to be a failure, i don't want to make fun of myself, ayaw kong paasahin ang mga tao, ayaw ko silang biguan
but there's a part of me that's excited to become a leader once again
i really don't know what to do
i can't decide
now's the right time to think about this
i don't want to make a decision and in the end regret everything i did
i hope i'll make the right choice