you had a bad day... had a bad day...

90 minutes ago, i was having my oral report in environmental biology lecture...
15 minutes ago, i was taking my last long exam in environmental biology lecture...
5 minutes ago, i was telling myself how exhausting this day has been...
3 minutes ago, i was telling myself to go home and sleep...
1 minute ago, i was telling myself to forget about all my responsibilities and join my friends...
30 seconds ago, i was thinking how life could have been if things did not go the way they did...

i had a bad day!
well not really bad but it's not one of those happy days. the days when i would slowly walk along the campus thinking of nothing but happy memories.
i had a lot of requirements that i wasn't able to think of happy things.
well its partly my fault why this day became this bad. if only i did that powerpoint presentation during the weekend, i could've had time to study for my long exam. but how was i supposed to do that! i was in batangas the whole weekend!
oh well. no matter what i am to blame for all these things. i could've done things much earlier so that it didn't pile up. but i didn't! i was too tired and too lazy to do things. i'm partly overwhelmed by the amount of work i need to do this summer... this school year. i'm not really sure if i can go with this till next year. there are times when i wanted to live in a dorm, just this year but my family can't afford it.

i just hope i get through this. i hope i succeed...
stop being lazy!!! get to work! final academic work next week!!! give it your best shot!!!

ultimate summer getaway

last weekend, all bio majors taking up ecology went to borromeo resort, calatagan, batangas. we did our last two experiments along the beach. i really had a good time even though the activites were somewhat tiring. i'll try to make this narration detailed but some of the events are somewhat hard to put into words....

Saturday
2:30 AM - i left my house. my father went with me to make sure that i get to school safely
3:30 AM - my father and i arrived at gate 2.5, street lights along the university road were turned off so we had no choice but to walk carefully along the dark road.
3:40 AM - i arrived at the SEC benches. i bid my father goodbye and went to look for my blockmates.
4:00 AM - the scheduled departure time. there were still a lot of students who were not yet there. one of my blockmates predicted that we'll be leaving at 6AM
4:00 - 6:00 AM - bonding time with my blockmates. we took some block pictures and played some games.
5:30 AM - the vans that will take us to batangas arrived. the three blocks gathered to receive final instructions from our professors. we then proceeded to the parking lot
5:45 AM - my friend and i still haven't found a vacant van. my professor jokingly said that we'll just commute to batangas
6:00 AM - i finally get to ride a van. the group left the campus and started our 4-hour trip to batangas
6:00 - 10:00 AM - we traveled to batangas. there was a stopover at the caltex station, south super high way. we ate french fries from McDonalds. when we arrived at tagaytay, i felt sleepy so i slept until we got to calatagan. there were a lot of fine sceneries along the road we took. i hoped i had a digicam with me.
10:00AM - we arrived at the resort after a long, exciting trip. we went down the steep stairs and fixed our things inside our cottage.
10:00 - 1:00 - we rested for some time while the others prepared our lunch. we picked an area in the dining room and set up. the whole block ate sinigang and mangga with bagoong. i had a feeling that the other blocks were looking at us because my block was the only one who was eating together on one table. after eating, i changed into my working clothes and put some sun block
1:30 - 6:00 PM - the whole group gathered near the beach and received instructions from our professors. we then started to work on the intertidal and subtidal area. we went 30 meters off the beach coast. it was already high tide so the waves grew big and it was really hard to conduct the experiment. i did not go too far since i don't know how to swim. i even had a sudden fear of the unknown sea creatures. i was afraid of accidentally stepping on a sea urchin or other dangerous sea creatures. it took a long time to finish the experiment since there were limited materials and the waves were really big strong. while working, my former blockmate , who was living in batangas arrived. we were so happy to see him. he went into the water and joined us. it was like a reunion. my whole block was happy to see him.
6:00 PM - the groups already finished the experiment so we were allowed to do whatever we want. i took a bat and changed into new clothes. i sat on my bed that was facing the sea. the wind was blowing hard so it was really cold up there. it was the perfect time to lay back and reflect. however, i wasn't able to do that for a reason i couldn't remember. i still felt eally light while the cool breeze blew on my face. it was the best feeling i had in years. it was as if all my worries flew with the wind. i forgot all about the things, all the work i left in manila. i was happy. i think i even felt bliss. a feeling that i haven't felt in more than i think ten years.
6:00 - 12:00 PM - we ate adobo for dinner. we rested for a while then my professor suddenly announced that there will be a contest. it was between BI.162 blocks A1 and A2. the block that could make the biggest bonfire that will last for 10 minutes will win 5 bonus points in the next long exam. i belonged to block A2. at first our fire was blazing and then it went down. the other block suddenly had a big fire burning so we got depressed or some time. however, this became a challenge to some o my blockmates. we looked for more fuel adn everyone was trying really hard to make the fire bigger. suddenly, our fire went up ang burned really big while the other block's fire went down. my group won the 5 points but the fire went too big that it was hard to controlit so my professor told us to put it out to prevent any accident from happening (the fire was burning near our cottages made from wood hehehe). we then rested for some time. then my block decided to play some games. we played Dr. Quack2x. it was the 1st time i played that game for more than 13 years. after playing we ate marshmallows that were heated in the bonfire. we shared it with other blocks since we brought plenty of marshmallows. after eating, we lay on the beach and watched the stars. the sky was so clear that many of us were able to see falling stars. i really had fun staring at the night sky. it could have been better if there was a full moon. the water went down since it was already low tide.
12:00 -1:00 - i accidentally slept on the beach. i woke up when my friend decided to call it a night. some of my blockmates drank some beer and they were already making a lot of noise inside our cottage. good thing don't like beer or i could've joined them. i fixed my bed adn went to sleep.

Sunday
6:00 AM - i woke up for no particular reason. i was still feeling a bit sleepy but my friend was already awake so decided not to leep anymore. we were scheduled to leave at 6:30 so i went up and quickly took a bath.
6:30 AM - most of us were still sleepign so our professors decided to start working at 8:00. my blockmates prepared breakfast while the others took a bath.
7:30 AM - we a hotdogs (regular adn cheese) and egg (sunny-side-up and scrambled w/ cheese)for breakfast. after eating we fixed our things and prepared for our trip to the mangroves.
8:00-9:00 AM - we gathered near the shore and received final instructions from our professors. we then started to walk to the mangroves. we crossed knee-deep water to get there. it was a hard walk since we couldn't see the small rocks blocking our way. the sand and washed sea grasses were always getting into my slippers. there were also weird bugs jumping around. i was one of the first few who arrived in the mangrove site. i was a bit proud of myself because i was one of the few who enjoyed the walk. when everyone was there, we started doing our experiment
9:00 -10:30 AM - we performed our experiment on the mangroves. while we were doing this, the tide started rising and the wind blew a bit harder. the sun also shone brighter. good thing i applied sun block before leaving. my groupmates were already feeling lazy but i was happy when i got to convince them to continue working. after performing our experiment, we started walking back to our area.
10:30 -11:00 - it was already high tide so the trip back was harder. we already had to cross a waist-deep water. during our return trip, i got my first injury. i accidentally stepped on tree thorns that were buried in the sea grasses. i got scratched a bit but for some reason, it hurt a lot. i felt really dirty so i was encouraged to walk faster so that i could gt some nice bath.
11:00 - 2:00 - i took a bath and got into dry clothes. my other blockmates prepared our lunch. we ate adobo (leftovers from our dinner) and teriyaki. after eating we stayed inside our cottages and relaxed. we played pusoy dos and other card games.
2:00 - 4:00 PM - we were scheduled to leave at 2:00 but other blocks were still swimming at 1:30 so we got delayed. at about 2:30, i decided to wear my jeans. i went down my bed. i think i jumped a bit so my foot accidentally went through the bamboo slits. my blockmates saw me and they immediately asked if i was ok. they asked me if got injured. i got shy so i told them that i didn't get any bruise. good thing they didn't force me to show my knee. i immediately went to the bathroom and washed the small wound and scratches with soap and water. i laughed at myself because i looked stupid. i felt a bit bad about me lying to my friends but i didn't want them to worry anout me.
3:00 PM - the vans arrived and we quickly fixed our things inside it. i looked back on the blue sea before riding on the van. we were going back to manila. goodbye to the sweet paradise.
4:00 - 9:30 PM - we traveled back to manila. my back was sweaty when i got in the van so i wasn' t feeling very well during the trip. i felt dizzy so i tried really hard to sleep. i woke up when i learned that one of the vans got bumped by a tricycle. it was left behind to file a police report. good thing the van had an insurance. we stopped over at starbucks tagaytay to eat dinner. i just bought sopao from hen lin and drank cold water from starbucks. i didn't want to eat a lot since it usually makes me more dizzy. i was asleep during most of the trip. i just woke up when we were already in C5 road.
9:30 PM - we arrived in the campus. my van was surprisingly the first one to arrive. we waited for the others so that my friends could get their bag from the other van. Then, i rode on my friend's car. She dropped me off at the jeepney station. i was going home. i was tired. the wind was thick and dirty. i suddenly missed the cool, sweet adn clean sea breeze. everything suddeny went back to me. i still had a lot of deadlines to meet. at least i had sort of a 2-day vacation before summer ends.

111

111 just made my day
hehehehe

nalungkot ako sa nauna kong exam
sobrang weird kasi ng questions at sobrang sabog ko pang sumagot
sana naman ok ang resulta ng exam na yun
kailangan ko talagang bumawi...

pero nabawi naman yun
ako kasi yung isa sa highest sa eco exam namin
nakakatuwa nga kasi at least may pambawi na ako sa mababa kong exercises at 1st long exam
sana mataas din ang makuha ko sa last LT at sa finals
gusto ko talagang makakuha ng B+ o A sa subject na iyon

i need to work harder
para naman hindi na ako magsisi sa huli
hehehehe

summer classes....

dalawang linggo na lang, finals week na. matatapos na rin ang summer classes ko. nakakapagod pero masaya naman ako ngayong summer. medyo hindi lang ako natutuwa sa resulta ng mga exams at quizzes ko. naiinis ako kasi kung kailan madali na ang lahat, tsaka pa ako nakakakuha ng mababang marka. nasanay na ba ako sa komplikadong pagtutur ng ibang professor kaya hindi ako makasabay kapag simple lang ang turo nila. naiintindihan ko naman ang mga lectures nila. hindi ko nga lang masagutan ng maayos ang exams kasi hindi yun yung inasahan kong ibibigay nila. ayun, kaya medyo hirap ako sa subjects ko. pero nung last exam, feeling ko magiging maganda naman ang resulta kasi naintindihan ko siya at nag-aral ako. hehehe

ano pa bang events this summer... ayun, nagmeeting na kami ng committee ko. natutuwa ako kasi masaya naman kami kahit na medyo boring akong tao. nalulungkot lang ako kasi ang dami kong nalilimutang sabihin sa kanila. tapos pinipilit kong maging organized pero ang labas niya, sabog pa rin. hindi pa ako gaanong nakakapaghanda tuwing meetings kaya medyo sabog talaga. mabuti na lang mababait sila, hindi sila nagagalit sa akin. natuwa pa ako noong nagkuwentuhan kami about issues. kasi may tiwala na sila sa akin, at alam nila na kailangan kong malaman. natuwa rin ako nung nalaman ko na alam na pa ng iba sa kanila na may mga oras na ipinagtatanggol ko sila. natuwa ako kasi pinahahalagahan nila yun. sobrang natuwa talaga ako.

next week, panibagong meeting na naman. sobrang dami naming dapat pag-usapan kaya sana maraming pumunta. God bless na lang sa akin! kaya natin ito!!!

rants....

ang bilis ko na namang mainis!
ano bang problema???
si paps naman kasi eh
bakit ba lagi na lang niya akong tinatanong
"uy alam mo ba yun? alam mo ba yan?

alam ko na mahilig si papa sa mga ganun kasi may issues siya nung bata pa
pero medyo sobra na eh
minsan hindi ko an ma-take yung mga tanong
lalo na sa mga oras na ayaw ko munang mag-isip ng acads
tapos bigla ka na lang tatanungin,
"alam mo ba yung ecotome?"

hindi naman ako ganun katalino
marami akong hindi alam
hindi ako isang walking encyclopedia
sana naman hindi siya tanung ng tanong as if alam ko lahat ng bagay sa mundo

pero hindi naman ako laging naiinis sa mga tanong niya
minsan willing akong makipag-brainy talk
pero ang weird kasi mag-isip ni papa
minsan hindi na rational, minsan pinipilit na lang niya
may issues kasi siya eh at feeling ko hindi niya alam yun

haaayyy...
ayan ok na ako...
salamat naman
kakayanin ko ito
hehehehe titiisin ko na lang si paps
malay mo, ako rin pala magiging ganun hehehehe

masaya ako....

i have just finished reading my friend's blog
he wrote about his experiences when he want back to the province last sembreak
after reading the emo post i realized many things...

i'm thankful that my parents did not give me more than what i needed
i'm thankful because my parents taught me how to save
they taught me to minimize buying what i want and taught me to always buy what i need
they taught me how to control myself
they taught me the importance of saving
they taught me to make sacrifices now and benefit from it in the future

i'm thankful because i don't crave that much for material things
i'm thankful because i don't get angry when:
1) i don't have money
2) my parents don't give me extra money
3) when i don't have new things
4) when my parents can't give me what i want

even if....
i know that i don't have all the latest gadgets
i don't have cable TV at home
i have never had a brand new cellphone
i don't own a laptop or ad i-pod or mp3 player
i know that at the moment, i don't have the money to do some things
i can't buy all the books at NBS
i can't eat everything that i see on TV
i can'y buy the things feature on the magazine
i can't go to places far from Luzon
i can't visit other countries
i know that i can't do everything that i want to do because of financial limitations....
i am still happy

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ok
tama na ang english
tama na ang mga kalabuan sa buhay
ulitin natin para ma-emphasize ang punto....

masaya lang ako sa takbo ng buhay ko
kahit na maraming kulang, hindi ako nagrereklamo
kahit na may mga oras na gusto kong magkaroon ng i-pod, laptop, bagong cellphone
kahit na minsan lang ako makabili ng bagong damit, sapatos, sandals etc.
hindi naman ako nakukulong sa mga materyal na bagay
kahit wala sa akin yun, nabubuhay ako
hindi ako nagagalit sa mga magulang ko kahit wala ako nun

masaya ako kasi maayos akong pinalaki ng mga magulang ko
sinanay nila ako sa simpleng buhay
nagbago man ang mundong iniikutan ko, hindi naman ako gaanong naimpluwensiyahan
kailangan kong sumabay sa agos pero hindi naman ako dapat magpatangay

sana laging ganito
sana laging may nagpapakita sa akin kung gaano ako kapalad
kung gaano kaganda ang buhay ko
minsan kasi binubulag ako ng mga pangyayari
hindi ko napahahalagahan kung ano ang meron sa kasalukuyan...

Atenista survey

nakuha ko lang ito sa blog ng friend ko
natuwa lang hehehehe
sana nakakarelate kayo....

(x) eat at Manang's - everyday last sem
( ) learn the alma mater
(x) get on the dean's list - twice, last sem kinulang ng .02
( ) sleep on a bench
( ) be a TNT! - ayaw ko, Log na lang (Log Cov Courts the best!!!!)
( ) jog around the campus in the evening - early morning!!!
(x) visit the art gallery
(x) know at least one xerox lady, manong, or technician by name - si Ate Alma!
( ) get a Jesuit for a teacher
( ) itch from higad bites - isa ako sa mapapalad
(x) have gotten an F in something - sa 1st theo LT 1 pt ang kulang para maging D
() have taken a crap in school
(x) watch a La Salle vs. Ateneo UAAP game - sa TV, talo Ateneo
(x) give a powerpoint presentation - madaming reports eh
(x) study in the caf upstairs - everyday ngaung summer
(x) watch a T.A play
( ) sit on the SEC ledge and watch the stars - sa berch at habang naglalakad sa walkway
( ) eat in Full House, Martha's Kitchen, and Ken Afford
(x) sleep in the lib - tambayan ko nung 1st year 2nd sem
( ) visit Mr. San Andres
(x) go to the chapel - miss ko na ito
(x) have gotten a pebble stuck in your shoe/slippers in the middle of the quad
( ) cut class with your block to watch a movie
( ) sign up for those institutional (i.e. difficult but brilliant) teachers
( ) go to CERSA night
( ) have tried siomai rice - aka poor man's meal - ano yun?
( ) fall in love - true love? never pa ata....
(x) actually read the book you keep borrowing from the lib - i love reading!!!
(x) play cards during your free time - sa Ateneo ako natuto ng pusoy, bridge, tong-its at poker
(x) dress in business attire - formal presentations
(x) learn to stay awake for more than 24 hours straight - busy girl eh
( ) have gotten side comments from ASSOC - nagbibigay ba sila nun?
( ) take (and enjoy) Saturday classes
( ) go to your immersion - 3rd year pa lang ako
( ) eat Food for After Thought sandwiches - cookies lang eh
( ) get a boyfriend/girlfriend - good girl pa ako
(x) take time to read the vandalism in the CR doors
( ) watch "Minsan Lang Sila Bata" and "Macho Dancer" for class
(x) do a last minute paper - sobrang dalas last sem
( ) have spent a lot for 1x1 ID pictures - hindi naman
( ) get exempted from final exams - A/B+ pa rin naman kahit hindi exempted (sa iba lang)
(x) attend a college mass
( ) play hide-and-seek in the mini-forest
(x) know where the best restrooms are on campus - para sa akin kostka
(x) join an org
(x) allow yourself to make mistakes-"the best things in life are complete mistakes"
(x) take summer classes
( ) admire the sacred heart statue in the evening
(x) make a video for a project - love ko ang Batangas group! your the best guys!!!
(x) have a crush on a teacher
( ) attend a Jesuit retreat
( ) have gotten a parking ticket - wala akong car eh
( ) come to school in your crappiest yet most comfy clothes
(x) learn how to use the Bayantel pay phones - hindi ko pa rin kabisado
(x) participate in school activities
( ) catch the Blue Babble Battalion tryouts
(x) ride a tricycle on campus
(x) find a tambayan
(x) admire the marikina valley at night
( ) go drinking along Katipunan - friend's house lang, sa LGV (loyola grand villas)
( ) learn how to beg for a higher grade - ayaw ko kasi alam ko na may pagkukulang ako
( ) use your cuts wisely - once pa lang ako nag-cut
( ) volunteer to be class beadle
( ) had the worst lottery schedule for reg
(x) admire the trees on campus - love ko sila!!!
(x) have forgotten about your freecut and gone to that class - once pa lang
( ) eat in the ISO canteen
(x) be active in your org -go gby
( ) have signed up on an ACP class just because the girl or guy u like signed up for it
( ) get as many app forms as you can during the job fair
(x) learn how to cram - certified crammer, kahit hindi halata
(x) sell tickets(or watch) an org-sponsored movie premiere
( ) save money to Xerox all of your seatmate's notes - masipag akong mag-notes
( ) have accidentally seen a make-out session
(x) check out the Meron Lagoon and Lambingan Bridge - site namin sa Eco Lab
(x) have dozed off in class in Bel right after a class in CTC/SOM/Comm. Bldg or vice-versa - sa lib ako nakatulog tapos ang class ko sa covered courts hehehehe
( ) learn how to work with groupmates from hell
( ) perfect the art of parking on campus
( ) had a bad encounter with one of the guards on campus
( ) develop a love for sisig
(x) learn how to pronounce "AEGIS" properly
( ) have used typing rooms at the library
(x) have reserved a classroom, AVR, etc. for a class or org function
( ) have asked the library for an endorsement to research in other libraries
( ) have lost a perfectly functioning umbrella
( ) have used consultation hours properly
(x) Looked forward to lab breakage refund, in case you didn't break any equipment
(x) visit the Guidance Office(x) and Infirmary

6 weird things/habits about yourself

walang nag-comment sa akin
pero dahil nabasa ko ito sa blog ng friend ko
at nagustuhan ko siya
isusulat ko yung sa akin
try niyo, nakatutuwa siya

The first player of this game starts with the "6 weird things/habits about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a blog of their 6 weird habits/things, as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their comments and tell them to read yours.

1) i love writing backwards
2) lagi kong kinakausap ang sarili ko (minsan naglalakad ako sa daan tapos bigla ko na lang kakausapin sarili ko, kapag may nakakita siguro sa akin, iisipin nila baliw ako)
3) mahilig akong tumingin sa mga bintana kapag gabi (feeling ko kasi may ghost na nakasilip dun at nakatingin sa akin)
4) mahilig akong tumitig sa mga tao (minsan tuloy feeling nila may ibig sabihin yung pagtitig ko)
5) kapag may exam, alam ko na yun yung correct answer pero ang isinusulat ko yung mali
6) feeling ko lagi na lang may nagbabantay sa lahat ng ikinikilos ko, para bang may laging nakatingin sa akin