imagine being with him forever....

What makes a person worth loving?

It's when you're both sleeping in a cold night...
You turn around, seeing him in his most innocent state...
You kissed him gently...
Making sure he'll not wake up...
You turn your back and a smile light up your face...
And then you felt an arm hugging your waist...
A warm breath on the back of your neck...
Hearing him say "I love you"...

No feeling can ever get better than this...

- a forwarded text message

LOVE
this four-letter word
what does this really mean?
i've been looking for the answers for so long
not sure though if i've been looking in the right places

people tend to see love strictly from the romantic love point of view
when people talk about love, it should be about romantic love
it's not that they consider brotherly or sisterly love or patriotism are not forms of love
it's just that romantic love tends to be more "juicy"
people have more things to gossip about when this is the topic
however, romantic love, as a topic, has lost most of its flavor
when people talk about this, it's usually about frustration, broken hearts, various problems
seldom will you hear people talking about their happy experiences with their partner
couples tend to keep to themselves the happy sides of the relationship
they only talk to other people when there is a problem

anyway, this is not actually what i wanted to talk about
the thought just crossed my mind
since this post is something about love,
might as well include it here

so about the text message i wrote earlier
i got it from a friend last week
when i first read it, i was imagining every detail
it was as if a movie was actually playing in my head
every time i receive this kind of message, i can't help but think of someone
i'm a proud member of SSB (in case you don't know, this means Single Since Birth)
but i have lots of crushes, some gets a bit serious at times but it never reached "that" point
i believe that there is still no need for me to have this "special" someone
it's a personal choice
i'm happy about this and i'm proud of it

however, there are really times when i imagine myself walking with someone
i imagine myself lying on the grass under the starry sky, talking with this special someone
but all these fantasies disappear when i think of my special someone and imagine myself with him for the rest of my life
i really want my first to be the last
if i can't imagine myself spending the rest of my life with this special someone, then it's not him
it's one of the simplest yet most crucial criteria in my search for "my" guy
no matter how "good" he is, if i can't imagine being with him forever, it's over

i was just thinking, do married couples thought about this when they got married?
do divorced couples think about this before they decided to marry this someone?
if i have this line of thought, am i not thinking way ahead, am i sealing the relationship prematurely?
what if various changes comes along the way, will i reconsider

oh well, i'm somewhat challenging my own ideas
hope i'm making some sense

hahaha oh wel
just wanted to let that out
been keeping this thought for so long
hope i got to communicate my point
don't want to expound on it
maybe next time